if you want me, then fight for me because I'm done fighting the hell for you.

because your beautiful and you don’t know it. because your smart and you don’t believe it. you are the kind of girl guys don’t get over and you’re the girl other girls get compared too.
actions speak louder than words. therefore, no need for me to say shit. im a motherfucking verb.

when i think about every other gorgeous girl who likes you now, i wonder why i even try .

ill be the first to admit that im not perfect. my lifes a wreck and the only thing holding me up is the hope that things might gett better. ive got some friends that will die for me, and others that would kill me, i remember when i used to be the happiest, loudest, spunkiest girl alive. nothing could get me down for very long. i smiled all the time and laughed non stop. Ahahahaha. #Blank.

I skipped school today, cause it's teachers day. So now Im going out for breakfast with mom,getting my hair cut and going to buy dvds to watch during the hols :)

If he doesn't even care, why should you? PS I was bored when I wrote this haha

Get over him. He's not even worth it. He is not worth your time or your tears. Yeah, you loved him, I know that. And I know you just can't see yourself with anyone other than him, I get that. I've been there. But why should you spend all your time sitting at home, bawling your eyes out and wondering where he is and who he is with. Do you honestly think he is thinking about you? Don't give him what he wants. He doesn't even deserve it. So what if he doesn't talk to you; do you honestly wanna be friends with an asshole like him anyways? Thing is I know you still do. But give it time. Because all he would do is talk about his new girlfriend and just try and make you jealous, do you really wanna hear that? No. Screw him and his girlfriend. He will be sorry. When he decided he just did not love you the same. Trust me, he will be sorry. Maybe not now but eventually. And don't you sit there thinking he won't be sorry I know you are. But I guarantee you now; He will be sorry. So don't go on spending your nights waiting for that one phone call you know your never gonna get. Or that IM you know he will never send you simply because he likes to ignore you. He likes to pretend he does not see you online, he does it outta spite just because he knows its killing you. When he walks past you in the hallways he is gonna look past you, but you need to know he will do that cuz he knows somewhere inside you, it will hurt. &i ain't gonna lie to you. It will hurt. It will hurt alot. But it will hurt even more when you see her name and how much he loves her in his profile. It's all gonna hurt. Knowing you're not the girl that's making him smile. Knowing you're not the first person he thinks of when he wakes up and the last before he goes to sleep. Knowing you're not the face on his background of his phone anymore. Knowing if he hasn't already he will delete the album of pictures of you he has on his phone. Knowing you won't be spending every single moment possible with him. Knowing there's not gonna be anymore late night phone calls fighting about who loves who the most. And you know what, today, tomorrow, next week, months from now; your phone will go off with a text message, you will instantly grab your phone hoping it's him saying he wants to give your relationship another shot. But trust me; hes got too much pride. Even if he wanted to be back with you, he wouldn't tell you. You're soon gonna realize he doesn't care about you anymore and he won't be the first person you call when you're upset. He won't be the one to put that smile back on your face. And yea it's gonna hurt; its gonna hurt like hell. But you know what you're gonna do? Your gonna hold your head up. You are gonna show him your better than him and you don't need him in your life. Because if he sees you sad and you let him know how much he hurt you; he's just gunna be a bigger asshole and feel no sympathy. But when he finally sees you having the time of your life without him; hes finally gonna look and remember how happy he used to be with you. You're gonna prove to him that he made the biggest mistake of his life letting you go+ that you never really needed him anyways. <3

Be clearly aware of the stars and infinity on highhh.

Sometimes late at night I think about all the things that have been, all the things that haven't, and all the things yet to be. If my heart could explode into a billion tiny pieces and scatter themselves all over the world. If I could live on sunlight and city sounds and fall asleep in those thousands of lighted windows. I wonder if this world will ever make sense to me, if I will ever truly understand anything, and if there's really anything to understand at all..

It's not that I believe everything happens for a reason. It's just that I think that some things are meant to be broken. Imperfect. Chaotic. It's the universes way of providing contrast, you know? There has to be a few holes in the road, because that's just how life is.

I wake up and tear drops, they fall down like rain .

regret. guilt. anger. sorrow. emptiness.

It's agony. Complete, excruciating agony. It's like your heart is being ripped out from your chest and stomped on. You can't breathe. You don't want to eat. You can't function. It's the most intense pain you'll ever feel, and the worst part is there's no way to relieve it. It's unyielding, merciless torture. And you know it's yours for life. This is how I feel about you. But serious shit, you just dont notice a single fucking thing .

Gotta have em!